I became everything I hate. I can’t look in the mirror anymore. I’m afraid. I can’t live in here but I don’t know how to start over. I hurt everyone around feeling so insecure. I’m in a trap and I feel so alone not being able to talk about it. I can’t just get out and not think where I could be now if I wasn’t, well.. just myself. How can I get rid of everything i hate in me, when it’s all that makes me me.

There wouldn’t be anything left. I’m a bad seed. I’m built of everything not worth fighting for.